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Day #15 - Talking to a shop assistant

My challenge
I'm embarassed when I have to talk to shop assistants.  I usually only go to big shops where you can go around and look without meeting a shop assistant. I feel anxious when they come to ask if I need something and I always answer no, even if I need their help.
Today I wanted to buy a pair of stockings and the shop was quite small. I started looking around by myself, but then I had a doubt about the size, so I asked.

How did it go?
The shop assistant was very kind and not at all persistent. She showed me some different types of stockings and answered to my question about the size... but nothing more. I bought the stockings I liked in the right size. Mission complete!

Day #14 - Playing a monologue at the park

My challenge
I'm an aspiring actress and I'm preparing a theatre show with my school. My scene is a monologue, "Request stop" by Harold Pinter, where a woman insults a man at the bus stop without any apparent reason. I want the scene to turn out good, so I went to the park with my friend to rehearse. And there was people at the park, people who began staring at tme.

How did it go?
A man was coming to get water from the fountain and maybe thought that I was speaking to him, so he looked quite scared. It was an hilarious scene, but I had to maintain my concentration. My friend was laughing out loud. But it wasn't so embarassing and I managed to take my self and my character seriously.

Day #13 - No makeup on

My challenge
This is not really a fear, but it's an insecurity. I'm a perfectionist and I'm trying to overcome my perfectionism, so today I decided to be not perfect and to go out with a non-perfect face. Without any makeup to hide my flaws.
I have very visible dark circles under the eyes and I always tend to put on concealer to hide them. Sometimes I go out without any makeup on, but not on purpose: I do it because I'm in a hurry and I don't have time to put on any makeup. I just have to go out and run to be on time. And, in these situations, I usually wear glasses, to conceal said dark circles under my eyes.
So, today I went out with no makeup on, on purpose, with no glasses to hide my face. And I tried to like my face as it is, wearing my best smile to make it better.

How did it go?
No one said anything and I forgot that I wasn't wearing makeup. I looked in the mirror a couple of times... and I think I'm prettier when wearing makeup, but maybe I'm not…

Day #12 - Wearing a septum ring

My challenge
I like the setum rings and I like how they look on me. I only have two fake ones, but I'm thinking about getting a real piercing (the problem is it costs a lot). I don't wear the fake septum rings often, because I'm afraid of how people will judge me. My parents hate it and my mum always tells me to take it off... so, even tough I like it, I'm not as happy as before wearing it, when I hear this comments.
Today I want to wear the septum ring in public and especially at work, to see what happens. Will I be able to enjoy an accessory I like and not be bothered by others people's looks and comments?

How did it go?
It was good! Almost everyone noticed and/or asked questions, but I didn't hear any criticism. Two colleagues told me that I looked good, a student was a little puzzled, but then we went on with the lesson. I was afraid of the boss's reaction, but she noticed after a few hours, because she was busy, and only asked if it hurt to get the pier…

Day #11 - Rewriting my story through the eyes of love

The challenge
This idea comes from the podcast The Lavendaire lifestyle and in particular from the second episode: Rewrite your story through the eyes of love. Aileen gave me a real epiphany with her story and her advice.
Many people struggle with their past and have memories that make them extremely sad. I am one of those people, like Aileen was, too.  But through her story, it came to me that I can rewrite the memories and see them in a different way. From a wider perspective and uncovering the love hidden in those facts.

How did it go?
At first, it was difficult to shift my perspective.  Seeing things in the same old way was more comfortable, because I could be angry. Now, I can't be angry anymore, because I have to understand why something happened and why other people thought it was the best way to deal with the situation. I have to recognize that others are human and can make mistakes.
It's not easy, but I have to forgive.

Day #10 - Running in the morning

My challenge
Many people say that going jogging in the morning is healthy and gives you a lot of energy. I like running, but I never did that, because I need to eat as soon as I get up. My body needs food to activate. If I don't have breakfast, I get a headache, I feel very weak and I feel like I'm fainting.
Running in the morning, I can't have a real breakfast. I can eat a little, but not much... and my body needs proper food, because getting up and starting a day is difficult! This morning, I ate only an apple and a bit of plain yogurt. Then I got dressed and I went out, in the park, to run.

How did it go?
I didn't die and I didn't faint... But I wasn't excited with the experience. I felt weak and I had to continuosly think about pushing my legs to make another step. My thoughts were concentrated on going forward and nothing else. I couldn't really look at the park that surrounded me or enjoy the sensation of my body moving. Plus, it was cold and there was…

Day #9 - Going to a casting for a short film

The challenge
The first aim of this challenge is to have the courage to go to castings. That is the only way to become an actress. So, some weeks ago I started sending emails to answer to the casting calls. A few days ago, someone aswered me. It was a casting for a short film made by an Art Istitute students. The casting was today and my mood wasn't great: I was already tired before going and I was feeling anxious... but the challenge here is beating fear and anxiety, so I went there and tried.

How did it go?
I'm not very happy about how I played the part, but I did the best that I could. There were a girl and a boy in the casting room and they were very friendly. They gave me directions in a kind way and I tried to follow them. They weren't judgemental. I don't think they will choose me for the part, but I'm happy that I tried.